Yes, it all sounds a tad bit outrageous that I am upset about this, but it's time for me to get healthy. I found out earlier this year that my dad has diabetes. Ever since this has come in to play, my entire family has been urking me to lose this excess weight. The truth is that I am overweight, and if you want to get really technical about it, I am "clinically obese." Yeah, I am cute and fluffy, I get that, but Barbie gets more attention than Teddy Bear. I am the Teddy Bear; not the best thing for self-esteem.
I sleep with a life-size teddy bear (I have had this thing since junior year in high school, ironic?) and my fatness has smooshed it and made it completely flat. That's depressing.
I admit, I am a bit conceited. I love myself, I really do. I know that if I do not love myself, then there is no room for anyone else to love myself, either. So, I am fixing the part that I don't love. I like it, but I dont LOVE it just yet.
I want to be great at something, not just good enough. I want to be great at being healthy. I want to be great at keeping my body in shape. I will get there, even if it takes me a while (6 months, lol).
Thank God I met Jessie. Yes, we can be "toxic," but that's due to the fact that we have the same interests, same feelings, and same attitude towards this goal. We can't help that we are awesome. We, also, can't help that we agree on this.
Enjoy!
--Nikki
